Sabbath Day Backlash
Dear Nicholas, It has been seven weeks now since I began my Sabbath day observance experiment, Sundays of rest, reflection, fun, and no work. Week Three was a revelation: a feeling of timelessness overtook me, an astonishing freedom.
These last two weeks, though? Well, I feel I have a deadline to finish every imaginable task by bedtime on Saturday night. Worse, on Sunday, I feel deprived of doing work I want to do.
I’m continuing with this observance, however. I knew at the start that I might need to make modifications, maybe even change days of observance. I’m not to the point of doing that.
Although as I write, it’s Saturday and I woke up thinking: Hmm, today might make a good Sabbath day. I felt tired from the many intense events of the week: a wonderful writers retreat at the beach
in which I got a startling amount of work done, finishing another draft of my novel (the day after my return), finishing a critique of a 600+ page novel, partying with dear writer friends, a lot of driving, etc.
One change in my observance would be to make my Sabbath day more focused on meditation, God, spiritual life, the overriding big picture, the underlying important stuff. I did have that in mind at the start, but somehow have let that slip. My emphasis has been on gardening, reading, and letting dishes pile up instead of unloading the dishwasher.
Getting myself to shift to a more spiritual focus–and doing it without feeling that I’m being ruled and restricted–would likely be the answer to this Sabbath day restlessness and minor chafing.
The novel I’ve just finished writing for the dozenth time is, after all, about a life lived half in a spirit world.
Of Course, There’s Always…
An obvious option: go to church. But I don’t want to. I want to stay far out in the serene Chatham County woods where I live.
Well, it was bound to come, this feeling of jumpiness about the whole idea. And I toy with changes that I know are no good: doing on the Sabbath day only work I want to do, or having two hours on and two hours off, etc. All of that sort of thing defeats the purpose.
What’s A Sabbath Day All About?
Maybe I need to consider what my purpose really is.
Do you, Nicholas and others, observe the Sabbath? How?
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