Doing much better, thank you!!
In my previous post, I was having a rough few days because the medication for my mild-to-perhaps-medium case of obsessive-compulsive disorder had run out of steam, as such drugs periodically do. I complained in detail about the rise of my old familiar symptoms, all of them hedges against largely unfelt anxiety. A bit like the character Jill in my novel Sister India. (Sometimes I think it would be easier to be scared.)
I very much appreciate the thoughtful responses in the comments to that post. Lots of good thoughts and personal stories.
And I now have a different drug that seems to be the right one and has kicked in fast. Halleluia! I feel like myself again.
Here's what I got out of (emerging from) my several down days:
*an awareness that I'd been sinking slowly without fully noticing
*a renewed gratitude for being alive
*happiness that I'm not living in premedication days when I'd have no alternative to being peculiar
*a renewed humility at seeing again that I have a problem I can't solve all by myself
*a bit of fresh zest
And the feeling that I'm glad I mentioned the whole business here: it was relieving to write it and to hear from people.
Categories: obsessive-compulsive disorder